I miss you & me.  I miss how we used to be.  Stay up for hours at night, like it didn't matter what time we went to bed. . .Rather it'd be 2 or 4 a.m.  It was nice to stay up late & talk about everything.  I loved that, but I guess everything has changed now. . .Like you don't care what goes or I how I feel about whatever...Dull, stale, & broken.  Like we were never meant to be nor anything else.  You do things like you don't care. . .You say things you are unsure about. . .You're down & depressed & stressed. . .I try to say things that will hopefully turn you around, but I guess if you go around & act like everything is cool, but it's not. . . .I guess I'm wasting my time on you.  You matter when you thought you didn't in the slightest ways possible.  I loved you no matter what.  But I guess my trying was useless & I'm not worth your time to be talking you.  If you don't care, why should I?  Right, because that's how it goes & it's life. . .Blah, blah, blah...Too bad I don't think like that.  As everyone has always told me, "You'll get over it."  I know deep down inside me that I won't. . . .I'll double think everything we talked about, I'll get frustrated when I think about you, I'll go back in time in my head over & over again. . .Getting over it just doesn't seem right to me....It's unfair, unheartfelt, & it hurts too damn much. . . .

I always loved you & always will.
No matter what.

~ <3 ~

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