I won't lie to myself, because that's the truth.  Rather or not I like it.  I thought about a sex change for years & it still comes to mind.  At this moment there's only one person that already knows this.  I will not say, because she knows who she is.  I haven't told anyone else yet either. .but I guess when I have the guts to tell I will. . But until then it stays locked inside of me.  Yes, I am a lesbian, but I'm also something else & have known it for years on end.  If I said I was two things at once people wouldn't understand & I swear they still don't. .but hey that's their opinion not mine.  I don't care what people think.  Never have, until something strikes me.  Than maybe yeah..

I always knew I was a lesbian, but something else struck me.  I'd have more often times, I felt like a guy & not a girl.  When I was younger people would spread rumors that I was a transexual.  It's funny though, because even though at the time I wasn't & I'm still not at the moment, (but just maybe soon) I knew it was true. .I'd smile or smerk every time somebody said it.  At the time I didn't know exactly what a lesbian was, but I knew what gay ment both ways & I knew what a transexual/transgender person was.  So yeah, it's been about 6-7 years since I've had these thoughts in my head.  Long time eh?  Tell me what you think if anyone reads this.

Thanks!!  Peace Out!! (-<)