Since last weeks bull$#!% & myself having nothing but nightmares. . .I can't say enough but to scream in my mind & want nothing more but to be free from my nightmares. . . .The thought of a sex change doesn't leave me.  Instead it haunts me as I try & sleep through the night...I do nothing, but toss & turn waking up almost every 10 minutes about 2-3 hrs a night. . .At times I can't drive myself back to sleep & I hate it...I wake up w/ heart pounding nightmares wondering if I'll die in my s...